I will add pictures later, just can't right now.
Today at 12:30 we will say goodbye to our beautiful Chaos. This is going to be one of the hardest things I will have ever had to do. So much prayer has gone into this decision and while Don and I are at peace with it, I can't imagine not bringing him home in the backseat. I don't know how to do this, so all prayers are welcome. Please pray for Chaos as he crosses that rainbow bridge. He has been the best sweetest boy ever.
We have known this day was coming for a long time. The vet told us we needed to make some tough decisions over a year and a half ago. We weren't ready to let you go, and you weren't ready to go. We feel blessed to have had all this time with you but today you let us know it was time to say goodbye. So here we area at the end of our precious time together. I try not to let myself go there. It hurts my heart so much.
I couldn't get you up this morning to go out, then when I did, you made it to the front door before you fell. I helped you back up and walked you to the grass. You immediately fell and just stayed there.
It broke my heart to see you like that . It was at that moment that we knew it was time to help you cross over the rainbow bridge.
I have never had to make this kind of decision and Don and I both have been torn for awhile as to what to do. We have spent a lot of time praying about this This morning we knew it was time to take away your pain.
We decided to spend a couple days with you doing all the things you love. We wanted to take you to the beach, your favorite place to be is in the water. t there. We wanted to gt you Dairy Queen ice cream and then drive around so you could feel the wind in your face one more time. We wanted to take you swimming in the pool with your water frisbees. God, how you loved to play water frisbee. We wanted to go to the different parks you loved and play with your red frisbees. We wanted to play basketball, your new favorite game, thanks to Amelia and Gianna. They love you so much.
But we got up this morning and knew we couldn't let you stay any longer. We did get you McDonalds cheeseburgers this morning. 10 of them. You gobbled down the all 10 of those things.
We had Jaxson come see you. He is without doubt your favorite person of all. You slept under your dads side of the bed your entire life except when Jaxson was here. You slept beside Jaxson every night he was here. You never left his side. I think some of your happiest moments were when he walked in the door. You would become so excited to see him. You were such a worry wart when he was in the pool. You stayed right there with him. He is so sad to say goodbye but he doesn't want you to suffer either.
Sulli used to be afraid of you but she loves you also. She will miss you as so many others will also. You make friends everywhere you go, never meeting a stranger.
Your two brothers, Sammy and Cody are going to be lost without you. You are Cody's tug of war buddy. You two use to drive me nuts because every time your dad walked in the door from work, you and Cody would start your tug of war game every single night. Cody would get so loud growling at you and you always let Cody win. You were such an awesome big brother,
Sammy was boss and you knew not to cross him. Not sure why but you just wouldn't. You somehow knew not to mess with him. But I also knew Sammy was safe if he was in your care. You watched out for them both. They won't understand when you don't come home and I know they will feel this loss also.
A few things that we are dearly going to miss is first the love in your eyes when you would look at us. You were our sweet, gentle monster. We will miss your inside bark. Your letting us know when you wanted to play frisbee, swim and go greet the ups lady. You had her had an understanding. She would stop just to say hi to you and you always wanted to get in her truck and go for a ride We will miss you in the back seat of the truck. You loved going anywhere. You loved traveling and meeting new people. Especially kids. oh how you loved all the kids. And they loved you back. You loved going to Indianan and visiting everyone. You especially loved Jo and Rogers farm. One of your favorite places to be. Your other favorite place to be was Laci and Johnnys house. You loved the thought of someday possibly catching a kitty cat there. lol
You really didnt care where you were as long as you were with us.
While you will be missed by many, your dad and I aren't sure how we are going to handle this. I am worried about your dad. You and him had such a special relationship. He drove us all to the parks almost every night between 9 and 10 pm. Why so late? So you boys could be dogs off leash and just go sniff and run without restraints. He doctored you with such care when you needed it. He would let you in the pool in the evening knowing if you got wet, even blow drying you, we couldn't get you completely dry and on all those nights you always curled up on the foot of the bed and slept with us. That's the only time you slept on the bed. I thought the floor must make you cold but I put down a king size thick comforter that became yours but you wouldn't sleep on it if you had been in the pool. Nope you slept with us.
You had your dad trained extra well. At night, if you shook your collar, your dad was out of bed almost immediately. He knew you needed him. He was up all hours with you, doctoring you, giving you ice packs, and just lying in the floor with you at all hours. I woke so many times to find him lying in the floor with you, loving on you. This is going to be so hard on him. He is losing his best friend today.
And so am I. You were my baby that grew to be my beautiful monster. You followed me everywhere. I cooked your dinner almost every night and you knew when it was 5 o clock. Time for me to start cooking. You would wait very patiently for your food while your little brothers weren't so patient. They would sit and cry and bark for me to hurry up. I am sure they annoyed you but you just ignored it. We are going to miss so many things with you no longer here. I am going to miss just trying to get in the door because you were always there to greet us. How I'm gong to miss you.
We feel like our hearts are being ripped out right now. It hurts so much but we have to do this for you. We love you our big beautiful gorgeous monster. We can't wait to see you again.
Forever in our hearts,
Loving you always,
Mom, dad, Sammy, Cody, Jaxson and so many others.
Have fun running abd playing frisbee and basketball. We'll see you soon, buddy. ❤❤❤
